My Top 5 Songs

Very late this month!  I just spend too much time on computers at work, and then for schoolwork in the evening.  So often, I postpone updating this blog. I hate my job. I really do.  It is such a disappointment.  My skills are not maximized there - actually, they are hardly used there.  What I do, anyone with clerical support can do, for the most part.  My technical background is rarely drawn from for daily responsibilities.   I should not complain.  My job would be a DREAM for most others.  The point is that I have so much time - YEARS - invested in advancing my education, my overall knowledge, and it's not something I can put into practice. C'est le vie. Hope I got that right. Ten years ago, the Foo Fighters song debuted at #1, stayed there for 3 months, and remained in the Top Five for a total of TWELVE months.  Wow.  I do not like that band, except for that song and a few others.  Oh, did I just offend someone? ...

We are chugging along, aren't we.  Autumn is not far away (YAY!). School has started - I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am confused about a lot of things.  I have a good life, all things considered.  Why do I always feel as if I'm shortchanged?  Will this ever change. I don't want to dwell on that now. Mastodon missed going 3 for 5 because they had a song drop out, but it was replaced by the new entry "Halloween".  It is the chorus on that song that just grew on me - I don't like the intro much, and the guitars are OK, but not great.  That chorus is just beautiful, though. I don't think they are done yet with charting songs from "Once More 'Round the Sun", though! That weird little song which I THINK (but not sure) is about a split personality is at #1.  It's just infectious, and catchy.  The soulful background vocals are nice. So that's it - the top two spots are female-led songs, one being a club EDM typ...

Whew!  Summer class over...got an A.  This wasn't a total chore - it was a pretty easy class. Two more...then I am done with graduate school...just nine more months or so.  Question is, what to do AFTER that?   Advance my career?  I just don't want to work more hours doing what I do, and instead want to focus on... ...have you been paying attention to my blog?   Yes, that is correct!  Music, acting, stuff like that.  And weightlifting and staying in shape, too. I'm actually in a good mood.  I feel good, but as usual, I'm sullen...with no relationships, nowhere to fit in, nothing....So as long as the weather  is nice and I can get out and walk and ride the bike, I'm good.  Otherwise, I suck. Chalk up another #1 for Mastodon.  They now have two.  Some day I will have to research what bands have the most #1s, most Top 5 songs, etc.  No doubt Godsmack will dominate most of those categories. The eerie and hauntin...

I kept putting this off...it's another thing on the schedule.  MORE time at the computer.  I need a break - I need frivolty: watching movies, driving around for the helluvit, getting a pizza at midnight.... I am just so busy, as usual. A cousin got married recently.  It was nice to see family from other states and provinces, for the first time in years.  I always feel dull, and that no one really wants to talk to me that much. Little do they know how interesting I am - I just am not the conventional citizen as they are.  They are mostly all nice people, but just...typical.  I just do not feel I am typical.  My dreams are for music and acting....honestly, they are. Here is this month's Top 5.  Mastodon just kicks ass, what more can be said.  There is weakness among the big hits, though, now that I can devote more time to my saved playlist of current favorites. I missed Jane's Addiction, by the way.  I was not feeling well, and ...

I am really enjoying the summer thus far!  I love riding the bicycle, sometimes going 30 miles or more on a ride, or tackling some big hills here in the city. I got an A in the winter class, and started the condensed, fast moving summer class. It shouldn't be too much of a problem.   Just this one and two more....! But I know really I am empty inside. I have no friends, no significant other.  It's hopeless. I haven't changed much over the last 20 years. The same things that bothered me then bother me now. Of course there are differences - and changes for the better, I would like to think.  But I still have the same faults, make the same mistakes when it comes to people, and still have the same anxieties about socializing and being the center of attention. That's all I care to say now. I care about those things, but DON'T care, at the same time. Mastodon is dominating the chart this month! Next month, they may strike with another single from the very good a...

Late this month posting - school has kept me busy.   The class ended this week, and I hope to get an A - we'll see.  I have 10 days of freedom until my accelerated pace summer class (2 months instead of 4!) commences. In good spirits lately.  The warm weather has me kicking butt on the hills on my bike.  The gears are a mess, though - I really have to learn how to fine tune them. The chain locks up at times, going up steep hills. I saw Mastodon, with Clutch and The Graveyard a couple weeks ago.  I really enjoyed Mastodon a great deal!  I did my head banging and acting so not my age (jumping up and down) but I don't care - I waited months for this after getting into this band last January.  I have three of their albums, now, and will probably get 'em all.   The other two bands were OK.  I was not fully impressed with Clutch, partly because I do not know their songs.  Most people there were for Clutch. I hope to see Godsmack at a mus...

April showers....bring nothing in particular.  Just a few days late this month.  Music has been great the last couple years.  The Rolling Stones are touring, and I want to go see them.  Also, I bought no less than 4 or so CDs the last few months - that is a tremendous amount.  A new appreciation for music dawned on me - a lot of that has to do with Black Sabbath's body of work, which I have enjoyed listening to online. Their 70s stuff was just so good - at least, I really like it now, whereas maybe 15 years ago I might NOT have, since I was pretty much loving the alternative rock sounds and textures that were amazing at that time. Things are going OK.  I went to church quite a bit just before Easter and found it very worthwhile. I prayed and thought I found some type of connection with God. I am feeling pretty good inside - not always so ugly and blue anymore. Easter was nice, but I always find my familial experiences to be disappointing. So here you ...