My Top 5 Songs

SEPTEMBER 2017 1.  "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 2, 1, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70 2.   "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  1, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ 3.  "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 3, 3, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 4.  "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 4, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4 5.  "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 4, 1, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg SEPTEMBER 2016 1.  "Shock Me", by Baroness 2, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0 2.  "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists 4, 2, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4 3.  "Cirice", by Ghost 1, 1, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I 4. "Once More 'Round the Sun", by Mastodon -, 4, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tI81VTGTdaU 5.  "Ember City", by Mastodon 3, 3, 3 https:...

All right.  Time to heal.  I am trying to shake off another episode of doldrums and chronic depression.  I am coming out of it again.  I am fighting to make life tolerable again.  I am trying to learn to stay non-depressed...again. This blog just has to be the worst read for anyone.  Like I said last year or whenever, I am talking just to talk.  Writing words just to write.  If someone were to read these words, fine.  If not....fine. I am not really enjoying the summer and not having much in the way of socializing.  I work too much, and am withdrawn where I look forward to the couch and the TV more than going for out to talk to the neighbors or whatever.  It's OK. I am not happy, but just going through the motions of life lately.  AUGUST 2017 1.   "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  1, 1, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ 2.  "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 3, 2, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watc...

Late again.  I am depressed.  Again.  I just have had it.  I am big whiny dick, I know.  There are people suffering in this world.  I can't understand why in my head this is so overwhelming that I feel like total shit, making me want to be alone, and to not live anymore.  I just have a very tired feeling inside. Nothing brings me joy.  I am dead again inside. JUNE 2017 1.  "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 2, 1, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg 2. "Show Yourself", by Mastodon -, 2, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ 3. " Phantom Bride", by Deftones 1, 1,  4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSycaeY7qi4 4. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect -, 4, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 5.  "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 5, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4 JUNE 2016 1.  "Cirice", by Ghost 2, 1, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I ...

Wow - my first real cold in many, many years.  It's a pain - having so much homework, and WORK work, to do, and feeling unfocused, hungover (from the vapo-rub, and decongestants)...at least I don't have a raw, burning, sore throat. Hopefully this will go away in no time. It's been busy, mostly with school. My acting is fading - I went on a few auditions for plays and each time, did not give a great audition, exactly.  I have nothing lined up for acting, too. That's all I have to say, really. I've improved with time management and got a good hold on my workload for school.  But - with all the older people at work retiring, I may get crushed with responsibility there. Thank God for music - that is all I have to say right now. MARCH 2014 1. "Choke", by Alice in Chains 1, 1, 4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKXSHVuWE8w 2. "Running Backwards", by Geoff Tate's Queensryche 2, 2, 3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLneKWFvESk 3. "Pha...