My Top 5 Songs

I start a new job this week.  I have rejoined the human race.  The reasons I feel my previous place of employment was (no, IS) an abortion and the most fucked up organization are too numerous, and too in-depth.   I am done.  I have a better job, with hopefully a better culture, with better people, waiting for me.  I am actually looking foward to GOING TO WORK....this is the first time in over 15 years that I can say that.  I am late this month with the charts. But what an interesting month it is! Mastodon - out. I never did go back and "revisit" the album that charted just two songs.  I barely remember any of that album.  I will listen to it again several times - I don't think I really absorbed it.  This little known band, Shin Guard has the #1 spot, and another song at #4.  I always forget how I stumble on a band on youtube, and somehow get attached to a couple of their songs.  Maybe it's because they are an unsigned b...

This is late. And this is the first time I will have typed anything in a posting since I dunno when. It is 2018.  I am doing OK. I have not had my usual seasonal affective disorder (my diagnosis), but then again I am so constantly uninspired and glum that there would be no difference, dark cloudy cold days or not. One notable thing is that unlike every holiday season since I could remember, I was not eager to get laid.  I mean, EVERY November through January, for decades, your boy was horny as a horny toad.   2016 was especially a whore fest.  Last year at this time, I had some experiences but they were not spectacular.  This year...hmm, no real desire. It's too much work to try to hook up.   Music keeps me going.  I really am enjoying listening to Dinosoul.  There are other newly found songs I have saved to youtube.  I don't make a habit of listening to music much (for months, now), hence the slow moving charts.   It ...

Just like last year, I am two weeks late for March's Top 5 entry.   I read what I wrote last  year - it makes me sad.  I haven't changed much since then. I know what it is - it's the stress of school.   I work very hard in my graduate classes (I am two months from graduating!) and its kept me from a lot of social contact.  Not that that would make me a happy person, but it helps soften my periods of depression, and gives me inner strength.  I am so busy this weekend (as I will be until this fucking class is over), so I will leave it at that. We'll see how I adjust to post-school life at the end of May!  I will be free of school and its worries for the first time in about 5 years.  And, I will be in a good living situation (the apartment), and with a job that is tolerable (for the most part)....all in all, a situation where all departments of my life are at least acceptable, for the first time since probably around 1991 - seriously, tha...

Home stretch for 2012...November already. Wow. I love the autumn, but I pretend in November...I pretend that I forget this is the month of my birthday. I don't really acknowledge it, nor do I like anyone else to make the slightest deal about it.  I think about it for a second or two, then put it out of my mind. This is because of the constant frustration I experience, year after year. It is my own fault, but I am just not happy - or, if I am, it's not for long. I am just an unhappy person. And lonely. Tim Hecker's instrumental is #1 again - just unchallenged, since I find a lot of entertainment in atmospheric music lately. There are two new entries - songs that are months old, that I have been enjoying, but finally boiled over into the Top 5. I like this month's top 5 - it would make a good mini-playlist on an I-pod. NOVEMBER 2012 1. "In the Fog, Part I/II/III", by Tim Hecker 1, 1, 6 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytQLA77X6Qw 2. "Irresistabl...