My Top 5 Songs

December 2017 1.  "Dimension", by Dinosoul 5, 2, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYYaSwWX5VQ 2.   "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 1, 1, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70 3. "Illusion", by Dinosoul -, 3, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOXkH_xaEpg 4.  "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 2, 2, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 5.   "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  3, 1, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ December 2016 1.  "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists 1, 1, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4 2. "Don't Let Me Down", by Chainsmokers featuring Daya 4, 2, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Io0fBr1XBUA 3.  "Shock Me", by Baroness 2, 1, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0 4.  "Once More 'Round the Sun", by Mastodon 3, 3, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tI81VTGTdaU 5.  "Joyride", by Che...

OK, I am late this month.  My motivation took a dive.  I have been hampered with a partially torn bicep, and a cold that isn't really a cold anymore more than just a disgusting, steady stream of nasal drip from the inside of my fat head into my throat. On that note, I continue.  First let me say formatting this stupid blog is a disaster.  Why other fonts become current just after starting a new paragraph is beyond me.  I understand hidden, non-visible coding that may exist, like it does in Word, but I swear I correct that by deleting blank lines...only to have these return. It's a new year.  The charts are slow moving, stagnant, and non-inspiring.  That may change as a slew of new songs makes their way into my youtube favorites. But it may not matter... ...I think I am heading to the end here.  I am just fed up, but as always, I am not sure what I am fed up WITH. I have working arms, legs, a safe living environment. I am not in poverty, and...

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!....I guess. I thought about 10 months ago things were looking up. Nothing has changed since, well, I was a kid. My life is lonely, full of ambition but without execution, full of fear and anxiety... It's not a totally horrible existence, but just frustrating because my mind reaches for things - the arts, love, excitement, contentness, but all those always seem beyond my reach, and it could be my own doing. Or rather, my own limitations (from said fear, anxiety, etc.). I'm tired. Just mentally tired. I know, I know, there are people in the world who suffer REAL fear - for their lives, on a daily basis. They don't have potable water, sufficient food, etc. I do feel for people in that situation. NONE of those luxuries do I ever take for granted. I always thank God for those. But I will always feel incomplete. DAMN! I just checked what I wrote a year ago, in January of 2010 - pretty much the same. I should spare my massive audience any more of my mala...

A new year, a new decade. Can I be any less enthused? I simply hate my life right now. I am unemployed, bored, without any real friends, confused, aimless, oppressed, ugly, uninspired, unmotivated, and without lack of adjectives! Well, Alice got another top five song. I think from the new album, a third might show itself. Three top five songs from one CD is pretty good (as if this were all real - haha!). Anyway, thank you Jerry Cantrell for "Private Hell" - it is sweetly opiatic, soothing, and yet in that way some bands like AIC does, strokes the anxiety and inner torment that boils inside me like a fairy tale witch's cauldron. "life is short"....mine seems to drag on endlessly, mercilessly. Here are my top five songs for this month.... JANUARY 2010 1. "Jars", by Chevelle 4, 1, 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bV-L24ZaPrY 2. "Check My Brain", by Alice in Chains 3, 2, 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZTQ7xlFFA8 3. "Never Gonna Give Your...