My Top 5 Songs

FEBRUARY 2017 1.  "Don't Let Me Down", by Chainsmokers featuring Daya 1, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Io0fBr1XBUA 2.  "Mountain at My Gates", by Foals 3, 2, 2  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_EIE5f2t6M 3.  "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists 2, 1, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4 5.  "Joyride", by Chevelle 5, 4, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=710aT-Uj_7c 4.  "Shock Me", by Baroness 3, 1, 9 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0 FEBRUARY 2016 1.  "Vanishing Man", by The Church 1, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ul13hip5LOM 2. "Come a Little Closer", by Cage the Elephant 3, 2, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVYup3Qwh8Q 3.  "Wildfire", by Borgeous 2, 1, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmZI7xFisHA 4. "Tread Lightly", by Mastodon -, 4, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ja8cXdo5fA 5.  "Take Out the Gunman", by Chevelle 5...

April showers....bring nothing in particular.  Just a few days late this month.  Music has been great the last couple years.  The Rolling Stones are touring, and I want to go see them.  Also, I bought no less than 4 or so CDs the last few months - that is a tremendous amount.  A new appreciation for music dawned on me - a lot of that has to do with Black Sabbath's body of work, which I have enjoyed listening to online. Their 70s stuff was just so good - at least, I really like it now, whereas maybe 15 years ago I might NOT have, since I was pretty much loving the alternative rock sounds and textures that were amazing at that time. Things are going OK.  I went to church quite a bit just before Easter and found it very worthwhile. I prayed and thought I found some type of connection with God. I am feeling pretty good inside - not always so ugly and blue anymore. Easter was nice, but I always find my familial experiences to be disappointing. So here you ...

Happy November.  As usual, I am up and down with my mood and attitude. I welcome death. I am loving life. I want to be happy. Leave me the f* alone because I want to be alone...permanently. It's this way. It will always be this way. I want to cry - I am crazy, yet not crazy. Maybe I have some form of adult autism, the way Jerry Seinfeld recently described himself in an interview I saw on NBC news. The song by Monica Richards finally broke through, after being on my playlist for so long.  It's had stiff competition.  It's an amazing song. It sort of reminds me of Peter Murphy's later 80s song "Cuts You Up".  So beautiful, but so sad.  It almost makes me cry - no, I'm actually slightly crying now. So much angst and anxiety. Anyway, I suppose this will be the last I ever hear of Monica Richards. It's just one of those things.  Great song, though - absolutely beautiful. Huh, I barely even remember "Last Train Home" by Lost Proph...