My Top 5 Songs

SEPTEMBER 2017 1.  "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 2, 1, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70 2.   "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  1, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ 3.  "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 3, 3, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 4.  "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 4, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4 5.  "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 4, 1, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg SEPTEMBER 2016 1.  "Shock Me", by Baroness 2, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0 2.  "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists 4, 2, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4 3.  "Cirice", by Ghost 1, 1, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I 4. "Once More 'Round the Sun", by Mastodon -, 4, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tI81VTGTdaU 5.  "Ember City", by Mastodon 3, 3, 3 https:...

OK, one week into the month, and I'm posting for my throngs of afficionados.  Not bad - normally I'm 2 weeks late, or longer. Love the autumn. Well, it has its plus and minuses.  Big minus - the university people come back.  I live in a great American city with a huge university presence - and they pretty much dominate the better parts of this city.   And they are usually fucking stupid in public spaces - driving, on the bus, anywhere.  Look, I was dumb too at that age.  I did not think ahead, I felt like it was my right to be afforded an explanation for everything, and to be catered to....I might be hard on myself and maybe I was not THAT bad.  Even at that age, I had an excellent work ethic learned from my parents.  But, yea, I was at times a dick.   But an independent thinker, at least.  I was never a herd follower, and usually was alone most of the time.  Fine by me! I am not an angry old man.  It's just that when ...

Well, this month, I am on time, for once.  (warning - there may be objectionable language below)... Christmas just sucks. I can't stand a sibling of mine, who just wrecks the joy with his pompous attitude. We are middle aged, mind you - but he has been this way his whole life. Can you imagine being yelled at by someone who is irritated at something you said, that they do not agree with? If this were the way he was, fine...but it's NOT - he is just like that to his family, but probably very nice to everyone else.  I guess he is really a total pussy. What - is this guy in elementary school?  Because that is what he sounds like - and everyone let's him get away with it.  It's basically bullying - and it's disarming, and embarrassing.  I want to tell him to fuck off, and that he is a ridiculous asshole who acts this way because he feels we are all weaker than he, but can't be this way towards others.   I really hate people like this - I mean, you know so...

Whew!  Summer class over...got an A.  This wasn't a total chore - it was a pretty easy class. Two more...then I am done with graduate school...just nine more months or so.  Question is, what to do AFTER that?   Advance my career?  I just don't want to work more hours doing what I do, and instead want to focus on... ...have you been paying attention to my blog?   Yes, that is correct!  Music, acting, stuff like that.  And weightlifting and staying in shape, too. I'm actually in a good mood.  I feel good, but as usual, I'm sullen...with no relationships, nowhere to fit in, nothing....So as long as the weather  is nice and I can get out and walk and ride the bike, I'm good.  Otherwise, I suck. Chalk up another #1 for Mastodon.  They now have two.  Some day I will have to research what bands have the most #1s, most Top 5 songs, etc.  No doubt Godsmack will dominate most of those categories. The eerie and hauntin...

It was a fun summer. Half way through, I got into a new apartment. I like the new pad very much. I rode my bike a lot, doing hills, too, and I lost a few pounds. I have more energy, and can do some hills with such ease now. All in all, a happy time for Mr. Poopy Head (me).  The school semester started. I am optimistic since this class should pose little difficulty. I am still so alone, though. I guess this is what I'm comfortable being - alone, so that is why I shy away from knowing someone, or more than one, a little better. I don't like personal get-togethers, I guess because I think I will bore someone, or have nothing to say. It's all anxiety. Football season has started!  Autumn approacheth!  Me happy on different levels, with little to complain about except for lack of affection, either friendship-wise, or of a more personal nature. Oh well..... Not much of a change with the Top 5.  I have a TON of current songs saved to a playlist, but can't get arou...

A little late again, but it's OK. Wow - I read the entry from a year ago and I'm glad I have moved on a bit from the constant malaise.  Things have gotten better - it took work, though.  I like who I am, for the most part. My job (a "REAL" job, and in my field of study) is going pretty well, six months in.  I have disposable income, so I can enjoy things I might not have been able to for the prior 3 years! And, I'm in love - again.  Well, not 'again', because I never really stopped loving this person..... ....but we are not together. I don't know if we will ever be. What I will say is that this person is very nice, very sweet, with a big heart. Like me, this person sees things bigger than the individual - god(s), nature, everything. I like that. Our religions/spiritual perspectives converge, but then seriously diverge at times. Our lifestyles couldn't be more different. Our discussions about anything - politics, the world in general - are int...