My Top 5 Songs

Late again.  Been almost sleepwalking through time within the last few weeks, as I am trying to get acclimated to a new schedule, new morning routine, and all that associated with a new job. Unknowns Shin Guard at #1 again...and Dinosoul roars back with an entry from their full length album. All of these are beautiful songs.  There hasn't been much in the way of metal, industrial, or punk in a long while.   I have no other comments.  I speak to no one. I hear nothing and am not heard.   Some ARE an island. September 2018 1.  "You Turned Everything to Paper", by Shin Guard 1, 1, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIXhJaMratA 2.  "Pain", by The War on Drugs 3, 2, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9LgHNf2Qy0 3. "It Never Goes Away", by Dinosoul -,3,1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DIf1GrHUspI 4.  "Flubline", by Shin Guard 4, 4, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFVunSkoFGU 5.  "Conscious", by Sthlm F...

Cool, got some motion on the charts, good songs moving through, some fresh stuff to listen to after a few months of stagnation and boredom.   Mastadon is due an album this year, I think, but I haven't paid much attention to :"Emporer of Sand".  I will have to give that a listen because the second song from it just charted, while "Show Yourself" hangs on a while longer!  There might be more good stuff on that album!  I just wasn't grabbed by it and let it fall by the wayside. Dinosoul rules, though.  Kinda makes me sad - will I ever hear from this band again?  It's a local band from in or around Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.  Those two songs are just lush and beautiful.  The soaring chorus on "Dimension" is, to me, awesome sounding.  I have always loved songs with similar guitar effects - its as if a guitar moans, or weeps, or laughs.  Those sustained notes with that particular effect is wicked.  I love that woman's voice - i...

OCTOBER 2017 1.  "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 1, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70 2.  "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 3, 2, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 3.   "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  2, 1, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ 4.  "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 4, 4, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4 5.  "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 5, 1, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg OCTOBER 2016 1.  "Shock Me", by Baroness 1, 1, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0 2.  "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists 2, 2, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4 3.  "Once More 'Round the Sun", by Mastodon 4, 3, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tI81VTGTdaU 4.  "Cirice", by Ghost 3, 1, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I 5.  "Ember City", by Mastodon  5, 3, 4 http...

I did not write anything last month because I did not care to.  So strange - as if I am writing FOR someone.  Really, this who thing, aside from my deep love of music, is therapeutic for me.  As if just writing out my feelings would help. I don't know if I've been helped.  All I can say is I am still thrilled that I am out of graduate school, almost for a year now.  As usual, the seasonal affective disorder (my diagnosis) hit this last winter, making me  miserable and glum on a daily basis. I have been working out, having lost weight, and feeling good mentally as well as physically. I have a second job a few hours a week to keep me busy and keep my mind off of deep introspection that usually results in suicidal fantasies.   I haven't pursued anonymous sex like last year.  I don't know if the drive is gone since I'm a year older, or if it has more to do with my crazy mind. I have branched out a little to get involved in various things,...

Late again.  November is a weird month for me for various reasons too boring to state. I love it, though.  It is the advent of the holiday seasons.  If I'm in school (which is most of my life, it seems), I can see the light at the end of the semester tunnel. Things are going so well that I can't help but think of ways to sabotage everything.  No, really, I think of cutting myself off from some friends.  Abruptly quitting my job.  I mean, ANYTHING, even suicide, anything that will hurt someone and make them feel bad.  A part of me would enjoy that, even though the 'whole' of me would not. Weird, I know.  It's like I can't just enjoy being....happy.  Content.  Comfortable in a success that I have created for myself. I need despair, conflict, sadnesss....This is just honesty here. I realize this problem.  I do not know why I HAVE this problem, though, nor how to let it go. I have a suspicion, though.  One reason my mind wo...

Very, very late this month.  I just got tied up with this graduate class I'm taking that is driving me nuts. 3/4 of the way through, and I am so confused. I am not a person that blames everyone else for my problems...but really, this teacher is so bad. THAT is the problem. I am consumed each week trying to get homework done, but I'm clueless as how to even start it!  So it's not like I can see the instructor at his office - what would I ask? I'm just so lost and figuring everything out on my own time - that's like doubling the time in class. *SIGH* But I perservere. In a week or two, I will do April's Top 5, and make some comments on my stupid life and my lovely songs.  Here is this month's very late Top 5: MARCH 2013 1.  "Underground", by Jane's Addiction 3, 1, 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VALinUhZkKQ 2.  Sleeping Giant", by Blondie 2, 2, 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdhCUzFQ4Hs 3. "Diamonds", by Rihanna ...