My Top 5 Songs

Here I am again. August, 2011. I can't believe I've made it to the halfway point of 2011. If you woulda asked me back in, say, 1985 that I would see the 21st century, I'd say "nah, hopefully I would kill myself long before that!". Long story short - i've stuck it out in this shitty life and im now officially middle aged. yes, middle aged and people still treat me like a kid. Why do I even bother waxing about it? I'm sick of hearing in my head my words here. I should just do it, for pete's sake. End it. I just don't want to destroy my parents lives. So I have to wait until they pass first. *eye roll* I am so frustrated with everything i do, everything i try, everyone i know. I feel so alone, even amongst people with whom i SHOULDNT be alone. im a mess - its all internal. its all me. I love "new low". blondie is back with another studio album (their ninth); this is the third since their "reunion" (which didnt inclu...

February is behind us - endless snow, snow, snow. Wamer weather, and hopefully, happier times, are on the way. I am so utterly alone its ridiculous. I've tried everything, but I can't forge friendships. I'd like a place to go, to visit. People to enjoy being around. I'm so lost it's pathetic. I heard Alberta Cross' song on digital cable. It blew me away. I love guitar effects, in ANY genre - if its a effect, it will move me! I checked out some of their other songs on youtube.com - they are good. In a different era, they'd be stars by now. But with the saturation of media, they are lost in the jumble, I think. I didn't make a mistake - both the March 2000 and 2009 charts were identical to their respective Februarys. MARCH 2010 1. "Jars", by Chevelle 1, 1, 4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bV-L24ZaPrY 2. "Private Hell" by ALice in Chains 2, 2, 3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfAXr4RZPE0 3. "ATX", by Alberta Cross -, 3, 1 http:...