My Top 5 Songs

" 'Tis the season"...for what, I don't know.  Another holiday season.  BAH.  I just don't handle well this time of the year.  My emotions are thrown back and forth, from literally disgust and hatred one minute to beign infected with joy and a belief that good times are ahead. After something like 3 years of this stupid blog, all my readers (zero and counting) know I'm just a basket case by nature. I am feeling OK, actually.  I am doing well in social situations, saving money, making acquaintances, and letting things roll off my back after smoldering for a short time, instead of letting things fester and eat me alive. Well, like last year, I get very, very...."eager" for physical experiences.  This happens to me around Christmas time usually, going back to my teens.  I think because it's cold (which makes me want to get physically close to someone, I guess), and usually a festive time for most people...there really is not a good reason, I g...

Just like last year, I am two weeks late for March's Top 5 entry.   I read what I wrote last  year - it makes me sad.  I haven't changed much since then. I know what it is - it's the stress of school.   I work very hard in my graduate classes (I am two months from graduating!) and its kept me from a lot of social contact.  Not that that would make me a happy person, but it helps soften my periods of depression, and gives me inner strength.  I am so busy this weekend (as I will be until this fucking class is over), so I will leave it at that. We'll see how I adjust to post-school life at the end of May!  I will be free of school and its worries for the first time in about 5 years.  And, I will be in a good living situation (the apartment), and with a job that is tolerable (for the most part)....all in all, a situation where all departments of my life are at least acceptable, for the first time since probably around 1991 - seriously, tha...

Late this month posting - school has kept me busy.   The class ended this week, and I hope to get an A - we'll see.  I have 10 days of freedom until my accelerated pace summer class (2 months instead of 4!) commences. In good spirits lately.  The warm weather has me kicking butt on the hills on my bike.  The gears are a mess, though - I really have to learn how to fine tune them. The chain locks up at times, going up steep hills. I saw Mastodon, with Clutch and The Graveyard a couple weeks ago.  I really enjoyed Mastodon a great deal!  I did my head banging and acting so not my age (jumping up and down) but I don't care - I waited months for this after getting into this band last January.  I have three of their albums, now, and will probably get 'em all.   The other two bands were OK.  I was not fully impressed with Clutch, partly because I do not know their songs.  Most people there were for Clutch. I hope to see Godsmack at a mus...

A new year. I won't wax philosophic - I'm not good at that, exactly. You know, opining with clever sentences and saying something enticing of a chuckle or two, while warming your heart in nervous anticipation of another year...I will spare myself the attempt at that. I will say this: I tried to wipe the proverbial slate clean. No more self-guessing. No more apologizing for stupid stuff that doesn't require an apology. Grab life. Face challenges. Stop being afraid of things getting hard or more difficult.  Just do it, dammit!  Accept the days when I feel miserable, or when I don't feel happy, and just deal with it...then move on. Oh, the insanity that is me. I'm so busy with acting opportunities coming up - trying to learn an English accents, practicing monologues, and trying to drop a few pounds to just look a bit healthier. Work is starting to suck, though. I have to amp up my effort. Well, the very cool "Running Backwards" by Geoff Tate's Que...