My Top 5 Songs

Winter just doesn't want to yield to better weather, it seems. It's a little tiring.  I meant to get out to see live music both Friday and Saturday (it's Sunday, 4-8 as I write this), but did not because I would rather get housecleaning and other stuff done instead of trek out again with all these layers.   Music is becoming electric, again.  I have been disinterested in it a while, but the fervor is returning (thank God).  I am feeling good lately, while working on keeping myself in a positive state of mind. What has helped preserve this good mood are the two sexual encounters over the last few weeks. One woman was so beautiful. I believe both were satisfied since I was really, really into it and stayed aroused for a long while.  Pretty sure my neighbors knew that, too, hearing the one around midnight getting it like no tomorrow. Now  I've descended into the gutter once more.  Sorry, but getting laid really does help me. It's not an addict...

Whew!  Summer class over...got an A.  This wasn't a total chore - it was a pretty easy class. Two more...then I am done with graduate school...just nine more months or so.  Question is, what to do AFTER that?   Advance my career?  I just don't want to work more hours doing what I do, and instead want to focus on... ...have you been paying attention to my blog?   Yes, that is correct!  Music, acting, stuff like that.  And weightlifting and staying in shape, too. I'm actually in a good mood.  I feel good, but as usual, I'm sullen...with no relationships, nowhere to fit in, nothing....So as long as the weather  is nice and I can get out and walk and ride the bike, I'm good.  Otherwise, I suck. Chalk up another #1 for Mastodon.  They now have two.  Some day I will have to research what bands have the most #1s, most Top 5 songs, etc.  No doubt Godsmack will dominate most of those categories. The eerie and hauntin...

Contentment of November turns to complacency.  I am not motivated to do much except keep up with my class. I just can't adapt to middle age. I don't feel I'm in 'my place'. I had NEVER felt that way - never comfortable in my own skin. Frankly I am sick of 'hearing' myself as I type this shit for what now?  The last two years or so?  There is little point, it seems, to continue this way.  Hey, I am not ungrateful for what I have - running water, indoor plumbing, a roof over my head, knowing I (probably) won't get shot by a sniper like some poor person in Syria or something. Yes, I am fully aware of the torment a lot of people go through daily just to stay alive, let alone be happy. But it's hard to explain how overwhelming frustration and sadness are. Music.....Geoff Tate's Queensryche hits the top spot!  Pretty good album. The haters (and Tate has a lot on youtube!) can hate - its a great song, it really is. I think the guitar solo was done...