My Top 5 Songs

Autumn descends on us. The nights are chilly.  I love this time of year.  I generally do not like winter, but do like autumn and in more recent years, summer.  Spring is tough because its generally rainy, humid, and how do you dress comfortably in those months?   It's cold in the morning and much warmer in the mid-day and afternoon. Yea, that's very interesting - my talking about the weather. I am listening to a posting at The Demoniacal, a website that collects and blogs daily different videos and articles on the paranormal, UFOs, and the like.  The current entry is a podcast where Bob Cranmer is interviewed.  He was a former county commissioner in Pennsylvania, and recently released a book about his family's haunting.  Listening to the guy is startling - he firmly believes this and explains the situations so matter of factly.  Maybe I should mention things in the world that are greater than my stupid little world and my problems...

It was a fun summer. Half way through, I got into a new apartment. I like the new pad very much. I rode my bike a lot, doing hills, too, and I lost a few pounds. I have more energy, and can do some hills with such ease now. All in all, a happy time for Mr. Poopy Head (me).  The school semester started. I am optimistic since this class should pose little difficulty. I am still so alone, though. I guess this is what I'm comfortable being - alone, so that is why I shy away from knowing someone, or more than one, a little better. I don't like personal get-togethers, I guess because I think I will bore someone, or have nothing to say. It's all anxiety. Football season has started!  Autumn approacheth!  Me happy on different levels, with little to complain about except for lack of affection, either friendship-wise, or of a more personal nature. Oh well..... Not much of a change with the Top 5.  I have a TON of current songs saved to a playlist, but can't get arou...

Late again, this month...the Top 5 should be posted within the first weekend of the month. September flies by, and many changes have taken place for me this year. Different siutations, and in some cases, the same old situations because I have habits or a way of living that will never change, I guess. My sadness comes and goes. I have a feeling of despair as I returned to school where I did my undergrad - a place I loathed and for which I have few fond feelings. I had thought that this time, I can MAKE it great, be PROACTIVE in enjoying my time there as I try to better myself and my life situation with advanced education. I'm not hopeless that that will happen. What I am scared of, as always, is MYSELF. I am my own worst enemy, with my laziness, procrastination, pessimism, and lack of motivation. I hate me sometimes. This month's Top 5 is rather strange. Compared to past years, it is very much NOT a dark selection (what with Godsmack, Disturbed, Linkin Park, etc.). Interesting....