My Top 5 Songs

I am at a strange peace.  I went to church tonight, and as usual, my mind strayed for most of it.  Sorry, but I have some kind of adult deficit disorder thing.  At least I went.  I do take spirituality seriously.  I can honestly say I have my doubts ANYTHING about it is true, but at the same time, my mind finds justification about the existence of God.  Hmmm...nah, will delve into it in a future posting, maybe. Well, I took a scalding hot shower after re-reading my previous month's post.  Yes, with clear conscious I was involved in meaningless encounters, but I wince when I read what sounds like gloating about it.  I probably will never have a long lasting, deep relationship.  I think I've known this for over 2 decades. I just can't do it - I am damaged in a way and that is why marriage will never happen, I guess. But that in no way means a life is mis-used. You can still touch people deeply (I am restraining to make a frat boy comment he...

December 2017 1.  "Dimension", by Dinosoul 5, 2, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYYaSwWX5VQ 2.   "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 1, 1, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70 3. "Illusion", by Dinosoul -, 3, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOXkH_xaEpg 4.  "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 2, 2, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 5.   "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  3, 1, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ December 2016 1.  "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists 1, 1, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4 2. "Don't Let Me Down", by Chainsmokers featuring Daya 4, 2, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Io0fBr1XBUA 3.  "Shock Me", by Baroness 2, 1, 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0 4.  "Once More 'Round the Sun", by Mastodon 3, 3, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tI81VTGTdaU 5.  "Joyride", by Che...

Very hate this month...next week another installment of the Top 5 Songs will be due!  Its OK, its fun for a couple reasons - I am REALLY, REALLY enjoying "The Devil Put Dinosaurs Here". As you can see, AIC has TWO songs now and they may go 3 for 5 by this time next week! It's a very enjoyable album.  Like I mentioned before, upon first listen, I was not moved in any way, shape or form! This year is going along OK.  My mental healing continues. I have a bout of depression now and then, and they have gotten a bit worse, but I attribute it to stress, and the winter.  I have been very busy with school (this current class sucks), and pursing acting opportunities.  Since January, I have auditioned for at least 4 things, which includes some theater companies. And...so far I'm shut out. It's frustrating. I'm a decent actor, but I think its my 'look', first and foremost. I don't really have a 'look', so people don't know what to do with me...