My Top 5 Songs

Before you blink, the summer will have passed by.  And it's been pretty good. I made time to get away for a few days, have been bike riding, planning ahead for acting, and so on. Life has been OK lately.  I am stressed from chronic neck pain and stiffness, and the headaches that result from my trying to work out the stiffness.  I will get that checked in due time. In the meantime, here is my Top 5 for August.  The song from 36 Crazyfists had been on my list of current songs for quite a while.  The competition from hard rock/metal songs has been tough the last year or more, because of Mastodon in large part.  Anyway, welcome, 36 Crazyfists, to a song tracking blog that has zero readers!  They have been around since 1994 - I only heard of them from this song, "Also Am I".   Great song.....I'm listening to them now via youtube, a song called "Slit Wrist Theory", which is pretty damn good, too! That is all - I actually have an audition for what...

Can't be any more of a procrastinator, as August is just days away. I did not receive my diploma in the mail, but the final grade is in, and I actually did pretty well - a B-. At one point in the semester I was expecting to finish with a D!    So to acquire a B- grade in that fucking abysmally difficult class?  AWESOME! YAY ME! I have been working hard (at work), but also finally getting out to enjoy things like bowling and such.  Well, I haven't yet picked up the guitar to learn (or RElearn) stuff, but that is coming soon. I have been actually so happy for a while now.  I have often mentioned in this stupid blog about my bouts with periodic depression and all that.   Moreso, it's sadness, and not really depression anymore.  I attribute that to my own self-education about depression and anxiety, and my motives to deal with it. All with no drugs...counseling I might have been able to use, but any psych drugs? Nope.  Not that ...

Well, this month, I am on time, for once.  (warning - there may be objectionable language below)... Christmas just sucks. I can't stand a sibling of mine, who just wrecks the joy with his pompous attitude. We are middle aged, mind you - but he has been this way his whole life. Can you imagine being yelled at by someone who is irritated at something you said, that they do not agree with? If this were the way he was, fine...but it's NOT - he is just like that to his family, but probably very nice to everyone else.  I guess he is really a total pussy. What - is this guy in elementary school?  Because that is what he sounds like - and everyone let's him get away with it.  It's basically bullying - and it's disarming, and embarrassing.  I want to tell him to fuck off, and that he is a ridiculous asshole who acts this way because he feels we are all weaker than he, but can't be this way towards others.   I really hate people like this - I mean, you know so...

2010 slogs on - one month down, 11 more miserable ones to go. I can't believe how my mood has changed. Even with just recording my top songs. No one may ever seen this blog, but still, it was fun to just let loose in my virtual world, to myself, if to no one else. But now I'm just mentally tired of life in general. Of course people have had it worse than I do, but it's not as if I've always been unappreciative of the luxuries I DO have, like central heat and air conditioning, and so on. I just feel like a waste of life. Did I just type that!?! I'm just find little reason to enjoy being alive. Oh well.... ....Godsmack pretty much ruled my charts over the early part of this past decade. In February 2000, they had TWO songs in the top five; both eventually became #1s! Im not very gaga over any band anymore, one reason being my age - you sort of lose unbridled enthusiasm as you get older. that's ok, it's understandable. but there will always be a place in my...

This month's list is almost three weeks late. I have been very preoccupied and kept putting this off. I am trying very hard to find some christmas spirit deep in the recesses of my dark, black soul... But anyway, looky here who is at #2!!! ***ALICE IN CHAINS*** The new CD is pretty good - not their best, but hardly a disappointment! By next month, another song from the new CD might enter the almighty Top 5! Also, "Jars" debuts, and its in very strong standing. It may catapult to #1 next month. I love the song - at this time, its my favorite current song. Here are my top five songs for December 2009, and the other lists from the past: DECEMBER 2009 1. "Never Gonna Give Your Teen Spirit Up", by Nirvana vs. Rick Astley, thriftshopxl 1, 1, 3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NN75im_us4k 2. "Check My Brain", by Alice in Chains -, 2, 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZTQ7xlFFA8 3. "It's Nice to Know You Work Alone" by Silversun Pickups 2, 1, 5 ...