My Top 5 Songs

Late again.  I am depressed.  Again.  I just have had it.  I am big whiny dick, I know.  There are people suffering in this world.  I can't understand why in my head this is so overwhelming that I feel like total shit, making me want to be alone, and to not live anymore.  I just have a very tired feeling inside. Nothing brings me joy.  I am dead again inside. JUNE 2017 1.  "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 2, 1, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg 2. "Show Yourself", by Mastodon -, 2, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ 3. " Phantom Bride", by Deftones 1, 1,  4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSycaeY7qi4 4. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect -, 4, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 5.  "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 5, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4 JUNE 2016 1.  "Cirice", by Ghost 2, 1, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I ...

The summer cometh to a close.  It was, well, interesting. I hope to break away for a week in September for vacation. It turns out I have a part in an independent movie (nothing groundbreaking - a 10-minute film) that will require travel a few hours away.  So it's not a 'true' vacation, but still, I will rent a car for the week and I'm guessing will be able to see places in the evening, if/when shooting is done for the day. Things are going OK upstairs in my head. I feel good - I am being very proactive in advancing my guitar skills. The thing is continuing for MONTHS AND MONTHS to really get some impressive aptitude - impressive for MY standards!  I will never be great at guitar.  But I want to create songs, SAY something in them, and write and play music some people will love. Chocolate + peanut butter is just the most evil concoction - can anyone eat ONE Reese's Peanut Butter cup? They are amazingly delicious! That is all.... Music....I am really digging ...