My Top 5 Songs

Ain't no cure for the summertime blues. I am still in a very anxious state.  I hate my job, but really, do I want to start AGAIN at my age?  I don't belong anywhere.  I am so alone in this world. JULY 2017 1.   "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  2, 1, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ 2.  "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 1, 1, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg 3. "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus -, 3, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70 4. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 4, 4, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw 5.  "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 5, 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4 JULY 2016 1.  "Cirice", by Ghost 1, 1, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I 2. "Shock Me", by Baroness -, 2, 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0 3. "Ember City", by Mastodon -, 3, 1 https://www.yout...

*SiGH*  Ups and downs, as usual. I could be doing pretty well for about a week, then everything - my optimism, self-confidence, and general outlook on life, come crashing down into a negative posture. If there are new things to try, there's hope. It's like buying time. If I didn't have this false hope, I would fall into depression like in years past.  I don't care. Who reads this stupid blog? I fucking hate my dumb life. JUNE 2013 1. "Diamonds", by Rihanna 1, 1,4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lWA2pjMjpBs 2. "Can't Get Better Than This", by Parachute Youth 2, 2, 5 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHC302BjEhY 3. "Bride of Infinity", by Blondie 3, 3, 3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIIf-Qo8XJo 4. "Glass Mountain", by Radiana -,4,1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SL4gIiuCB-A 5. "Live to Rise", by Soundgarden 5, 5, 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3ZNtOcY_1A JUNE 2012 1. "The Sound of Winter"...