My Top 5 Songs

I did not write anything last month because I did not care to.  So strange - as if I am writing FOR someone.  Really, this who thing, aside from my deep love of music, is therapeutic for me.  As if just writing out my feelings would help. I don't know if I've been helped.  All I can say is I am still thrilled that I am out of graduate school, almost for a year now.  As usual, the seasonal affective disorder (my diagnosis) hit this last winter, making me  miserable and glum on a daily basis. I have been working out, having lost weight, and feeling good mentally as well as physically. I have a second job a few hours a week to keep me busy and keep my mind off of deep introspection that usually results in suicidal fantasies.   I haven't pursued anonymous sex like last year.  I don't know if the drive is gone since I'm a year older, or if it has more to do with my crazy mind. I have branched out a little to get involved in various things,...

What a month.  I'm glad its over.  I completed a role in a movie.  I filmed one night for a small role in a web series - both of those projects were the week just prior to my final exam and the final project. Long story short - used 1 1/2 days of vacation for the film projects, got very little sleep the following week, and went almost crazy with worry about the final project. All ended well, though - I finished the final exam online tonight, in fact, finished the final project this morning at 1AM, and got an A in the class. I am feeling pretty good. I got a new chin-up bar and have resolved to eat better, and exercise more often.  My plan for being a rock star are put on hold....again.  Will that ever happen? haha. It's late. This is a week late. I'm free from school for 3 weeks, but I have to spend time studying old material in preparation for this upcoming class.  But I would like to get away for a couple days in August. Get some sun, relaxat...

NOVEMBER 2010 1. "Good Day to Die", by Godsmack 1, 1, 4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqcNgHbPRSg 2. "Letter from a Thief", by Chevelle 2, 2, 5 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7YMc6P6UDMk 3. "Crying Like a Bitch", by Godsmack 3, 1, 6 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rb3_RR_N5Uo 4. "Snuff", by Slipknot -,4,1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZX13R1jrFQI 5. "1901", by Phoenix 4, 2, 7 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RulP4OXxFbM NOVEMBER 2009 1. "Never Gonna Give Your Teen Spirit Up", by Nirvana vs. Rick Astley, thriftshopxl 1,1,2 2. "It's Nice to Know You Work Alone" by Silversun Pickups 2,1,4 3. "Use Somebody", by Kings of Leon 5,3,2 4. "The Royal We" by Silversun Pickups 3,1,6 5. "Panic Switch" by Silversun Pickups 4,4,3 NOVEMBER 2000 1. "Break Stuff", by Limp Bizkit 2. "Loser", by Three Doors Down 3. "Shayla", by Berlin vs. Meeks 4. "Rearranged", by ...