August 2017

All right.  Time to heal.  I am trying to shake off another episode of doldrums and chronic depression.  I am coming out of it again.  I am fighting to make life tolerable again.  I am trying to learn to stay non-depressed...again.

This blog just has to be the worst read for anyone.  Like I said last year or whenever, I am talking just to talk.  Writing words just to write.  If someone were to read these words, fine.  If not....fine.

I am not really enjoying the summer and not having much in the way of socializing.  I work too much, and am withdrawn where I look forward to the couch and the TV more than going for out to talk to the neighbors or whatever. 

It's OK. I am not happy, but just going through the motions of life lately. 


AUGUST 2017

1.  "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  1, 1, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ

 2. "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 3, 2, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70

 3. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 4, 3, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw

4. "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 2, 1, 5
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg

 5. "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 5, 5
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4



AUGUST 2016

1. "Cirice", by Ghost 1, 1, 4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I

2. "Shock Me", by Baroness 2, 2, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0

3. "Ember City", by Mastodon 3, 3, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jN4B6bGm0Ao 

4. "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists -, 4, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4

5. "Vanishing Man", by The Church 4, 1, 10
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ul13hip5LOM




AUGUST 2007

1. "Where Soul Meets Body", by Death Cab for Cutie
2.  "Enemy", by Godsmack
3.  "All These Things I Hate", by Bullet for my Valentine
4. "Lazy Eye", by Silversun Pickups
5. "Forever", by Papa Roach

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