JUNE 2017

Late again. 

I am depressed.  Again.  I just have had it.  I am big whiny dick, I know.  There are people suffering in this world.  I can't understand why in my head this is so overwhelming that I feel like total shit, making me want to be alone, and to not live anymore.  I just have a very tired feeling inside. Nothing brings me joy.  I am dead again inside.

JUNE 2017

1. "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 2, 1, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg

 2. "Show Yourself", by Mastodon -, 2, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ

 3. " Phantom Bride", by Deftones 1, 1, 4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSycaeY7qi4

 4. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect -, 4, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw

 5. "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 5, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4



JUNE 2016

1. "Cirice", by Ghost 2, 1, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0Ao4t_fe0I

2. "Tread Lightly", by Mastodon 1,1, 5
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ja8cXdo5fA

3. "Vanishing Man", by The Church 3, 1, 8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ul13hip5LOM

4. "Sick Like Me", by In This Moment, 4, 4,4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03X0B6u-AxM&list=RD03X0B6u-AxM

5.  "Wildfire", by Borgeous 5, 1, 11
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmZI7xFisHA



JUNE 2007

1. "All These Things I Hate", by Bullet for my Valentine
2. "Enemy", by Godsmack
3."Steady as She Goes", by The Raconteurs
4. "Breath", by Breaking Benjamin
5. "Fully Alive", by Flyleaf

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