JANUARY 2015

Another new year.   I am...indifferent.  I just don't emote much - I don't get excited, nor dejected. I just go with the flow.  I miss having EMOTION - being angry, happy, jubilant, or downcast - either a positive or negative emotion.  It doesn't matter - that was LIFE.

I'm slowing down in my old age. haha.

I'm sorry the song "Bear Hands" did not last long in the Top 5. I hope I don't forget it forever and never revisit the song.

The new entry this month is one of those flukes:  a song from an artist I normally wouldn't like too much...but for whatever reason, I heard a song by chance, on a day I was more receptive to dance music, and it stuck in my head.  I love the Chainsmokers Remix of "Habits".  I checked out other songs by Tove Lo, the Swedish pop star.  She's OK, but it is just not my cup of tea.

"Splice" is just an intoxicatingly beautiful song.

There is not much else to say that I stated last month.  Geoff Tate ruled, last year. 2005 started off rather "cold". Lot's of memories from 2014, 2005, and some to be made in 2015 - it's all about music to me...memories, feelings, and it flows in my veins.

I want to pick up music (again) this year and start reteaching myself guitar and get thoughts and song down, including covers.  I want to do this - I have an adolescent angst inside of me, buried deep. I think I would enjoy writing, and performing music, and I think I'd be a total freak if I did it.  No blues or 1980s covers from me, like my peers always seem to do.

JANUARY 2015

1. "Top Notch", by Manchester Orchestra 1, 1, 6
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nswP4ydGYzo
2. "Habits (Chainsmokers Remix)", by Tove Lo -, 2, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1Xv0cNcsoY
3. "Splice", by Rare Monk 3, 2, 6
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O66H08eIF_I
4. "Afraid", by The Neighbourhood 4, 4, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFDGg6q_4g8
5. "Let You Go", by Monica Richards 2, 2, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZGBpW08VS0


JANUARY 2014

1. "Cold", by Geoff Tate's Queensryche 1,1,3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzDJHuxBTUw
3. "Choke", by Alice in Chains 3, 2, 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKXSHVuWE8w
3. "All I Wanna Do", by Splashh 2,2,4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUNArMF_vDI
4. "Running Backwards", by Geoff Tate's Queensryche -, 4, 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLneKWFvESk
5. "Safe and Sound", by Capital Cities -, 5, 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47dtFZ8CFo8


JANUARY 2005

1. "Cold", by Crossfade
2. "So Cold", by Breaking Benjamin
3. "Telepath", by The Church
4. "Cold Heart Bitch", by Jett
5. "Last One in the World", by Blondie

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