JUNE 2013

*SiGH*  Ups and downs, as usual. I could be doing pretty well for about a week, then everything - my optimism, self-confidence, and general outlook on life, come crashing down into a negative posture.

If there are new things to try, there's hope. It's like buying time. If I didn't have this false hope, I would fall into depression like in years past.  I don't care. Who reads this stupid blog? I fucking hate my dumb life.

JUNE 2013

1. "Diamonds", by Rihanna 1, 1,4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lWA2pjMjpBs
2. "Can't Get Better Than This", by Parachute Youth 2, 2, 5
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHC302BjEhY
3. "Bride of Infinity", by Blondie 3, 3, 3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIIf-Qo8XJo
4. "Glass Mountain", by Radiana -,4,1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SL4gIiuCB-A
5. "Live to Rise", by Soundgarden 5, 5, 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3ZNtOcY_1A


JUNE 2012

1. "The Sound of Winter", by Bush 1, 1, 5
2. "End to the Lies", by Jane's Addiction 4, 2, 3
3. "Somebody That I Used to Know", by Goyte -, 3, 1
4. "In the Fog, Part I/II/III", by Tim Hecker -, 4, 1
5. "At the Edge", by Queensryche 2, 1, 7

JUNE 2003
1. "Bring Me to Life", by Evenescence
2. "Straight Out of Line", by Godsmack
3. "You Know You're Right", by Nirvana
4. "Mine", by Taproot
5. "Like a Stone", by Audioslave




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