My Top 5 Songs

Here I am again. August, 2011. I can't believe I've made it to the halfway point of 2011. If you woulda asked me back in, say, 1985 that I would see the 21st century, I'd say "nah, hopefully I would kill myself long before that!". Long story short - i've stuck it out in this shitty life and im now officially middle aged. yes, middle aged and people still treat me like a kid. Why do I even bother waxing about it? I'm sick of hearing in my head my words here. I should just do it, for pete's sake. End it. I just don't want to destroy my parents lives. So I have to wait until they pass first. *eye roll* I am so frustrated with everything i do, everything i try, everyone i know. I feel so alone, even amongst people with whom i SHOULDNT be alone. im a mess - its all internal. its all me. I love "new low". blondie is back with another studio album (their ninth); this is the third since their "reunion" (which didnt inclu...

Is 2011 flying along or what? Father Time is in a hurry to usher us all to our demise in 2012, I suppose. ha. I have to minimize the negativity in my life. I've realized that for many, many years, I've been a little hard on myself - all this negativity isn't TOTALLY due to myself. It has a lot to do with other people. For some reason, I gravitate to negativity and negative people. So in a way, it's my doing, but sometimes you can't help but be affected by the negativity that spews from people you have to associate with. That's a very simplified explanation. What an interesting month for the Top 5! TWO new entries - how refreshing! Adele kicked butt but her songs are waning. Very respectable for her. BLONDIE is back with their best album since their reunion (well, thats not sayin much). They still have a bit of fluff on the new CD, but the songs arent bad. I'd say there are no less than 3 possible hits on the CD - not that they'll be hits, but they a...

Wow - late June. Yes, I'm a couple weeks late posting this month's chart. I'm depressed. I'm lonely. I actually prefer being alone, but at times during the week I think how incredible it would be to have someone to see, if just to meet for a quick dinner. Life seems overrated at times. But at other times, incredibly worth experiencing. I have always been a person of extremes - wanting to kill myself for a couple days in a row, then feeling the excitement of something like bicycling, an amusement park, or roller blading, and feeling so great that I think I can conquer the world. That must be why I can gravitate to a band like Godsmack, then something very aural and lush, like Florence and the Machine's "Cosmic Love" (which fell out of the top 5 a couple months ago). Anything in between - forget it. For the most part. I am in typical form, of which I've suffered since adolescence. I'm in my 40s now, and what has changed - alone, coming up short of ...

May - I hate this month. Here is the top 5 for this month....enjoy, y'all: MAY 2011 1. "Someone Like You", by Adele 1, 1, 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qemWRToNYJY 2. "Rolling in the Deep", by Adele 2, 1, 4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rYEDA3JcQqw 3. "I Blame You", by Godsmack 3, 2, 4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UU57vA0--rQ 4. "Shake Me Down", by Cage the Elephant 5, 4, 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v27TRan1SBI 5. "Colors of Life", by Mystic -, 5, 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzI4Ns_uJ_Q MAY 2010 1. "Private Hell" by Alice in Chains 1, 1, 5 2. "ATX", by Alberta Cross 2, 2, 3 3. "It's Your Decision", by Alice in Chains 5, 3, 2 4. "1901", by Phoenix -, 4, 1 5. "Sort Of" by Silversun Pickups 4, 4, 4 MAY 2001 1. "One Step Closer", by Linkin Park 2. "Outside", by Aaron Lewis/Fred Durst 3. "Beautiful Day", by U2 4. "Awake", by Gods...

There is a disconnect in my chart keeping - I stopped, for some reason, in March of 1998, then continued my charts in April 1999. This will drive me crazy in the future if I want to look up a song. OK, this is weird - Adele DEBUTS at #1, and knocks GODSMACk down a notch. I never expected this to happen. I NEVER like vocal performers. But hell, she has good songs; I usually don't enjoy a lot of vocalist performers, but she's definitely an exception. The "Someone Like You" performace at the Brit Awards (see video below) is phenomenal. It is so rich, so perfect, so deep. She was so beautiful and voluptuous. Her face was like a modern Mono Lisa, but twice as beautiful. What a great, but sad song. Why did it debut at $1? Well, I ended a relationship in early March. This will undoubtedly be the last one I ever have. I just can't imagine doing it again. It was a complicated thing - she lived over an hour away for starters. So I happened to come across Adele...

Adele is so cool. I am swept away with the two songs I know from her. One of those songs - well, see below! The other I only heard recently, and was so moved by it. I guess that I like her modesty. She's not arrogant, maybe a tad shy. I tend to not like vocalist performers, but Adele - wow, I never would have guessed how much I'm inter her right now. How y'all doing? I'm OK, I guess. Still chronically underemployed, and no closer to choosing a long term life path. There are things I'm getting into, like music and acting, but those things aren't worth mentioning until/unless they become viable, real things, and not just hobbies. Enough said about that...As always, it's fun to look at the charts from a decade ago. I actually wrote to Michele Crispin, telling her how interesting and cool her cover of "Rapture". She actually wrote back! That song by Linkin Park is the only one of theirs that has charted on my Top 5. I just don't like them that ...

February already! The Super Bowl is in 2 days (this blog is about a week late), and let's hope the Steelers trounce Green Bay. I've been feeling better lately because of music. Music just affects my soul like nothing else. I like to saturate my head with just a single song, 'hearing' it in my memory all day long - that alone is better than having no music at all, from a radio, from streaming, or wherever else. OK, let's talk about the charts! Chevelle is #1 again, for only the second week, but has been in the Top 5 for EIGHT weeks. It's a catchy song, no doubt. "I Was a Teenage Anarchist" reminds me of "Freak of the Week", by Marvelous 3 for some reason. This song is fun indulgence. Its saving grace is the refrain. Here comes Godsmack again! This is the third song from the most recent album - sort of. "I Blame You" is not on the actual CD I bought, but its on the accompanying DVD, as is "Whiskey Hangover", a song that ...