AUGUST 2011

Here I am again. August, 2011. I can't believe I've made it to the halfway point of 2011. If you woulda asked me back in, say, 1985 that I would see the 21st century, I'd say "nah, hopefully I would kill myself long before that!". Long story short - i've stuck it out in this shitty life and im now officially middle aged.

yes, middle aged and people still treat me like a kid.

Why do I even bother waxing about it? I'm sick of hearing in my head my words here. I should just do it, for pete's sake. End it. I just don't want to destroy my parents lives. So I have to wait until they pass first. *eye roll*

I am so frustrated with everything i do, everything i try, everyone i know. I feel so alone, even amongst people with whom i SHOULDNT be alone. im a mess - its all internal. its all me.

I love "new low". blondie is back with another studio album (their ninth); this is the third since their "reunion" (which didnt include all the original members) in 1999. i like about 7 of the 13 songs on it - the best ratio of the post-reunion albums.

but its Blondie, people! ok, not without all the original people, and with 1/2 the talent, but there are a few cool songs on the new disc.

Will ya look at that? in 2001, Godsmack was #1. nine years after that, they have the top and second spots! i have to evaluate my top groups of all time. Godsmack may be #2 when its all said and done (blondie is #1 and always will be!).


AUGUST 2011
1. "New Low", by Middle Class Rut 1, 1, 3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5GYOsKLp6o

2. "A Crime", by Sharon van Etten 3, 2, 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7UHoXqlUqLk&feature=related

3. "D-Day", by Blondie 5, 3, 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u92zq-s4pxs

4. "Winter Harvest", by The Accident Experiment -, 4, 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XhgRnN7ZZ3o

5. "Shake Me Down", by Cage the Elephant 2, 2, 5
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v27TRan1SBI


AUGUST 2010
1. "Good Day to Die", by Godsmack -, 1, 1
2. "Crying Like a Bitch", by Godsmack 1, 1, 3
3. "1901", by Phoenix 2, 2, 4
4. "Letter from a Thief", by Chevelle 4, 4, 2
5. "It's Your Decision", by Alice in Chains 3, 1, 5

AUGUST 2001
1. "Greed", by Godsmack
2. "Crawling", by Linkin Park
3. "Butterfly", by Crazy Town
4. "One Step Closer", by Linkin Park
5. "Beautiful Day", by U2

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