JANUARY 2010

A new year, a new decade. Can I be any less enthused? I simply hate my life right now. I am unemployed, bored, without any real friends, confused, aimless, oppressed, ugly, uninspired, unmotivated, and without lack of adjectives!

Well, Alice got another top five song. I think from the new album, a third might show itself. Three top five songs from one CD is pretty good (as if this were all real - haha!). Anyway, thank you Jerry Cantrell for "Private Hell" - it is sweetly opiatic, soothing, and yet in that way some bands like AIC does, strokes the anxiety and inner torment that boils inside me like a fairy tale witch's cauldron.

"life is short"....mine seems to drag on endlessly, mercilessly.

Here are my top five songs for this month....


JANUARY 2010

1. "Jars", by Chevelle 4, 1, 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bV-L24ZaPrY

2. "Check My Brain", by Alice in Chains 3, 2, 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZTQ7xlFFA8

3. "Never Gonna Give Your Teen Spirit Up", by Nirvana vs. Rick Astley, thriftshopxl 1, 1, 4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NN75im_us4k

4. "It's Nice to Know You Work Alone" by Silversun Pickups 4, 1, 6
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2bitgQxheo8

5. "Private Hell" by ALice in Chains -, 5, 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfAXr4RZPE0


JANUARY 2009
1. "Pocketful of Sunshine", by Natasha Bedingfield
2. "Believe in Me", by Staind
3. "Rise Above This", by Seether
4. "The Hungry Ghost", by The Cure
5. "Endless Summer of the Damned", by Bauhaus

JANUARY 2000
1. "One Man Army", by Our Lady Peace
2. "Moon Baby", by Godsmack
3. "You Wanted More", by Tonic
4. "Voodoo", by Godsmack
5. "The Chemicals Between Us", by Bush

JANUARY 1997
1. "Spoiler", by Jawbox
2. "Angry Johnny", by Po
3. "Trippin' on a Hole in a Paper Heart", by Stone Temple Pilots
4. "Ready to Go", by Republica
5. "The Train", by King's X

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