January 2018

This is late. And this is the first time I will have typed anything in a posting since I dunno when.

It is 2018.  I am doing OK. I have not had my usual seasonal affective disorder (my diagnosis), but then again I am so constantly uninspired and glum that there would be no difference, dark cloudy cold days or not.

One notable thing is that unlike every holiday season since I could remember, I was not eager to get laid.  I mean, EVERY November through January, for decades, your boy was horny as a horny toad.   2016 was especially a whore fest.  Last year at this time, I had some experiences but they were not spectacular.  This year...hmm, no real desire. It's too much work to try to hook up.  

Music keeps me going.  I really am enjoying listening to Dinosoul.  There are other newly found songs I have saved to youtube.  I don't make a habit of listening to music much (for months, now), hence the slow moving charts.  

It was ten years ago when "Once Beautiful" hit #1.  I loved that song.  It still rocks.  A bit emo for some, maybe, but who cares - it's a well-crafted song.  
I can't even find "If", and who the fuck is Ken??? I don't remember that song.  Was I a moron - and is that KEANE? But I am not finding a song with that title from that performer.

 Let it go....

January 2018

1. "Dimension", by Dinosoul 5, 2, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYYaSwWX5VQ

 2. "Illusion", by Dinosoul 3, 2, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOXkH_xaEpg

3.  "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus 2, 1, 7
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70

 4. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 4, 2, 8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw

5.  "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  5, 1, 8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ


January 2017

1. "Don't Let Me Down", by Chainsmokers featuring Daya 2, 1, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Io0fBr1XBUA

2. "Also Am I", by 36 Crazyfists 1, 1, 6
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLkm-Bpkgv4

3. "Mountain at My Gates", by Foals -, 3, 1 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_EIE5f2t6M

4. "Shock Me", by Baroness 3, 1, 8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hS5osAdTnm0

5. "Joyride", by Chevelle 5, 5, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=710aT-Uj_7c


January 2008

1. "Once Beautiful", by Last Dance
2. "If", by Ken
3. "Well Thought Out Twinkles", by Silversun Pickups
4. "Because of You", by Battery Cage
5. "I Get It", by Chevelle


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