My Top 5 Songs

Late again.  Been almost sleepwalking through time within the last few weeks, as I am trying to get acclimated to a new schedule, new morning routine, and all that associated with a new job. Unknowns Shin Guard at #1 again...and Dinosoul roars back with an entry from their full length album. All of these are beautiful songs.  There hasn't been much in the way of metal, industrial, or punk in a long while.   I have no other comments.  I speak to no one. I hear nothing and am not heard.   Some ARE an island. September 2018 1.  "You Turned Everything to Paper", by Shin Guard 1, 1, 6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIXhJaMratA 2.  "Pain", by The War on Drugs 3, 2, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9LgHNf2Qy0 3. "It Never Goes Away", by Dinosoul -,3,1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DIf1GrHUspI 4.  "Flubline", by Shin Guard 4, 4, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFVunSkoFGU 5.  "Conscious", by Sthlm F

I start a new job this week.  I have rejoined the human race.  The reasons I feel my previous place of employment was (no, IS) an abortion and the most fucked up organization are too numerous, and too in-depth.   I am done.  I have a better job, with hopefully a better culture, with better people, waiting for me.  I am actually looking foward to GOING TO WORK....this is the first time in over 15 years that I can say that.  I am late this month with the charts. But what an interesting month it is! Mastodon - out. I never did go back and "revisit" the album that charted just two songs.  I barely remember any of that album.  I will listen to it again several times - I don't think I really absorbed it.  This little known band, Shin Guard has the #1 spot, and another song at #4.  I always forget how I stumble on a band on youtube, and somehow get attached to a couple of their songs.  Maybe it's because they are an unsigned band and they sound....different for the t

Dog days of summer.  Or dog daze...life churns on. People are dying.  Uncles, aunts, a cousin or two, and loved ones of acquaintances.  It's sad.  People move on, things change, but not really.   And slowly, you are displaced.  You become older, the generation of yesterday. Your zeal wears thin. That "energy" is hard to come by at times.  Your passions - weak.  Your lust for life - gone. Or maybe I just feel this way because I am listening to the song from The War on Drugs.  In a way, its a sad song.  I have no idea - when do I ever pay attention to lyrics anymore.  I just like sounds, effects, mood.  What is he even singing about. What am I ranting about???   Almost mid-summer.  Things, going OK.  I am not thrilled to see the sun rise, but I am not dreading the new day, either.   I have accepted what is, is.   Or I am just being way deep tonight for some reason. I am always tired.  I am worried that I might have a brain thingy (tumor?  mass?).  I want to sleep

Very late this month.  I have been so busy with my job, which has me underpaid and with expectations beyond my job title.  It figures. Worst part is that all the time I spent getting through graduate school is all for not.  I will never use any of that in this stupid admin job that I have. I barely remember "Hard Sun" by Eddie Vedder.  I am listening to it now because after typing in that song title (for the 2008 chart, below), I was puzzled. I think I remember it, but vaguely. That is all for this month..... June 2018 1.  "Sultan's Curse", by Mastodon 1, 1, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Og39iIBeOHI 2.  "You Turned Everything to Paper", by Shin Guard 3, 2, 3 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIXhJaMratA 3.  "Conscious", by Sthlm Falls 4, 3, 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_yc-2b2fBw 4.  "Heavy Dirty Soul", by Twenty One Pilots 2, 2, 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_9Kf0D5BTs 5.  "Illusion", by

I am at a strange peace.  I went to church tonight, and as usual, my mind strayed for most of it.  Sorry, but I have some kind of adult deficit disorder thing.  At least I went.  I do take spirituality seriously.  I can honestly say I have my doubts ANYTHING about it is true, but at the same time, my mind finds justification about the existence of God.  Hmmm...nah, will delve into it in a future posting, maybe. Well, I took a scalding hot shower after re-reading my previous month's post.  Yes, with clear conscious I was involved in meaningless encounters, but I wince when I read what sounds like gloating about it.  I probably will never have a long lasting, deep relationship.  I think I've known this for over 2 decades. I just can't do it - I am damaged in a way and that is why marriage will never happen, I guess. But that in no way means a life is mis-used. You can still touch people deeply (I am restraining to make a frat boy comment here, ha!), and bring love to a co

Winter just doesn't want to yield to better weather, it seems. It's a little tiring.  I meant to get out to see live music both Friday and Saturday (it's Sunday, 4-8 as I write this), but did not because I would rather get housecleaning and other stuff done instead of trek out again with all these layers.   Music is becoming electric, again.  I have been disinterested in it a while, but the fervor is returning (thank God).  I am feeling good lately, while working on keeping myself in a positive state of mind. What has helped preserve this good mood are the two sexual encounters over the last few weeks. One woman was so beautiful. I believe both were satisfied since I was really, really into it and stayed aroused for a long while.  Pretty sure my neighbors knew that, too, hearing the one around midnight getting it like no tomorrow. Now  I've descended into the gutter once more.  Sorry, but getting laid really does help me. It's not an addiction (please, these