June 2018

Very late this month.  I have been so busy with my job, which has me underpaid and with expectations beyond my job title.  It figures.

 Worst part is that all the time I spent getting through graduate school is all for not.  I will never use any of that in this stupid admin job that I have.

 I barely remember "Hard Sun" by Eddie Vedder.  I am listening to it now because after typing in that song title (for the 2008 chart, below), I was puzzled. I think I remember it, but vaguely.

That is all for this month.....

June 2018
1. "Sultan's Curse", by Mastodon 1, 1, 5
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Og39iIBeOHI

 2. "You Turned Everything to Paper", by Shin Guard 3, 2, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIXhJaMratA

 3. "Conscious", by Sthlm Falls 4, 3, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_yc-2b2fBw

4. "Heavy Dirty Soul", by Twenty One Pilots 2, 2, 5
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_9Kf0D5BTs

 5. "Illusion", by Dinosoul 5, 1, 6
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOXkH_xaEpg


JUNE 2017


1. "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 2, 1, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg

2. "Show Yourself", by Mastodon -, 2, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ

3. " Phantom Bride", by Deftones 1, 1, 4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSycaeY7qi4

4. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect -, 4, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw

5. "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 5, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4


JUNE 2008


1. "I Get It", by Chevelle
2. "Once Beautiful", by Last Dance
3. "Empty Walls", by Serge Tankin
4. "Never Too Late", by Three Days Grace
5. "Hard Sun", by Eddie Vedder

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