JUNE 2011
Wow - late June. Yes, I'm a couple weeks late posting this month's chart. I'm depressed. I'm lonely. I actually prefer being alone, but at times during the week I think how incredible it would be to have someone to see, if just to meet for a quick dinner. Life seems overrated at times. But at other times, incredibly worth experiencing. I have always been a person of extremes - wanting to kill myself for a couple days in a row, then feeling the excitement of something like bicycling, an amusement park, or roller blading, and feeling so great that I think I can conquer the world. That must be why I can gravitate to a band like Godsmack, then something very aural and lush, like Florence and the Machine's "Cosmic Love" (which fell out of the top 5 a couple months ago). Anything in between - forget it. For the most part. I am in typical form, of which I've suffered since adolescence. I'm in my 40s now, and what has changed - alone, coming up short of