July 2018

Dog days of summer.  Or dog daze...life churns on. People are dying.  Uncles, aunts, a cousin or two, and loved ones of acquaintances.  It's sad.  People move on, things change, but not really.  

And slowly, you are displaced.  You become older, the generation of yesterday. Your zeal wears thin. That "energy" is hard to come by at times.  Your passions - weak.  Your lust for life - gone.

Or maybe I just feel this way because I am listening to the song from The War on Drugs.  In a way, its a sad song.  I have no idea - when do I ever pay attention to lyrics anymore.  I just like sounds, effects, mood.  What is he even singing about.

What am I ranting about???   Almost mid-summer.  Things, going OK.  I am not thrilled to see the sun rise, but I am not dreading the new day, either.   I have accepted what is, is.  

Or I am just being way deep tonight for some reason.

I am always tired.  I am worried that I might have a brain thingy (tumor?  mass?).  I want to sleep too often.  My eyesight gets worse...constant discomfort in my sinuses.   

I need to amp up the exercise a little, and over a few weeks, I should feel better.

I like being alone, moreso lately.  I will die alone.

The instrumental by Sthlm Falls is #1.  It is a haunting melody, and not the first instrumental to hit #1, I think.  "Black Earth" by Implodes comes to mind (DID that hit #1?).  

Not much else is moving.  Dinosoul hanging in there, still!  Mastodon, too.  I have not been putting a lot of time into music, but I should try to - it is so helpful to my mood, my "zeal", "passion", all that crap some self-appointed philosopher may have once spoken about. 

*sarcastic LOL* 



July 2018

1. "Conscious", by Sthlm Falls 3, 1, 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_yc-2b2fBw

2. "You Turned Everything to Paper", by Shin Guard 2, 2, 4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIXhJaMratA

3. "Sultan's Curse", by Mastodon 1, 1, 6
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Og39iIBeOHI

4. "Pain", by The War on Drugs -, 4, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9LgHNf2Qy0

5. "Illusion", by Dinosoul 5, 1, 7
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOXkH_xaEpg

JULY 2017

1.  "Show Yourself", by Mastodon  2, 1, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUGda7GdZPQ

2. "Moth Into Flame", by Metallica 1, 1, 4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tdKl-gTpZg

3. "Nimble Bastard", by Incubus -, 3, 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9foq4RPR_70

4. "My Name is Human", by Highly Suspect 4, 4, 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5-gja10qkw

5. "Feel Alive", by Red-Sided Garter Snakes 5, 5, 4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qysnVcbA-c4

JULY 2008

1. "Never Too Late", by Three Days Grace

2.  "I Get It", by Chevelle
3. "Once Beautiful", by Last Dance
4. "Hard Sun", by Eddie Vedder
5. "Empty Walls", by Serge Tankin